Well, I messed up yesterday.
I worked at the beach and packed a couple of boiled eggs and some celery for lunch. I had a good breakfast so thought I could get by with that much food till dinner.
I was wrong.
Around 3:30 I felt a mild sense of hunger, but nothing I couldn't handle. (Or so I thought) By 4:30 I was definitely hungry, and I was feeling a mild sense of panic. My brain was starting to obsess about dinner, and I felt vaguely uncomfortable and nervous.
As I started driving home at 5pm, all I could think about was what I was going to eat. I was feeling like I had to have some food immediately! I started thinking about what I had at home to eat and suddenly no food in my house was going to satisfy me.
Like magic, Good Leslie and Bad Leslie appeared. I started to think about McDonald's, Long John Silvers, Chinese restaurants and every other fast food joint that I was going to be passing on my way home. Good Leslie started to argue with Bad Leslie, trying to reason about how I should just go home, find something healthy and calm down.
It didn't work.
By now I was in the middle of what constitutes rush hour traffic for my area and traffic was at a crawl. I was pretty much in a full blown panic now. I didn't know at this point whether Good Leslie was going to go home and eat healthy or BAD Leslie was going to stop somewhere and pig out.
I'm sad to say that BAD Leslie won the battle.
Traffic was stalled right at the turnoff to What- A- Burger, my favorite fast- food restaurant. Suddenly Bad Leslie grabbed the steering wheel and turned it right into the parking lot that serves my favorite hamburger and malt. Bad Leslie convinced me as I was walking in that I was doing the right thing. While I was inside eating, all traffic would clear out and I would calm down and all would be well again. Once inside, all good intentions (If they ever existed) fell to the wayside as I ordered a DOUBLE meat hamburger, fries, and a LARGE vanilla malt! I am not going to lie to you. I ate it all, and I enjoyed it. I didn't feel sick or shaky or anything bad physically. I did feel a little bit sad that I had fallen off the wagon but I told myself that I could jump right back on it today, and that is what I have done. I also exercised for an hour today to try to make up for some of it.
What I wonder about is this: Why do I get so panicked when I start to get hungry? All reason seems to go out the window and I lose control. Logic tells me that I will get food again; that I am by no means starving to death, but the panic just takes over. Once that happens I am not going to deal with food in the right way until I have gorged myself on fast food and carbs. After I do that, I feel calmer and more satisfied for a while. I know that people who have control of their eating habits or who have never had a weight problem don't know what I am talking about but a lot of people will probably identify with me. What makes me get so freaked out sometimes and lose control?
I suppose the answer to this is when I am at work to never let myself run out of good, healthy foods to munch on every couple of hours. I will make that my goal for next week.
I would like to hear if any of my readers have ever gone through an episode like mine and what you do to avoid it. Leave me a comment.
On a happier note, this morning I wrote down a list of prioritized things I wanted or needed to do today and I accomplished them all. Yay for me! More later..........
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Monday, May 16, 2011
Today is a beautiful day. I am feeling very happy and upbeat today, so thought I would share with whoever reads this.
I just saved $9.50 with coupons for things that I REALLY needed. It made me feel great! I have not done couponing since my children were little but with times as hard as they are now, if you can save a few cents on something why not? It is easy to do and doesn't take a long time. I have a wonderful son-in-law who loves to use coupons too. The way I look at it is this...If you found a quarter in the trash can, would you pick it up? What about seventy five cents, a dollar, or even five dollars? I know I would. (By the way, I color my hair and LoReal actually had a coupon for $5.00 off 2 boxes of their brand. Of course I used that.) I am by no means an extreme couponer; that requires hard work and dedication, but if I can save money on something I have to buy any way, why not? The trick to saving with coupons is NOT to buy things that you normally wouldn't purchase, just because you have a coupon. I find the coupons in the Sunday paper, and on the internet. I went to the local library to look for some but all of theirs were expired. I decided to put the money I save into a special envelope marked "Fun". I will figure out how to spend it later.
So that is one thing that makes me happy. Another thing that I really love is my somewhat unconventional relationship with my daughter in VA. We meet and chat on Facebook or text each other almost everyday and we have developed many inside jokes and crazy rituals that crack us both up. Some of our inside jokes are things that I would never have been able to express or discuss with anyone when I was younger. Getting older has somehow given me a less rigid view of things that I used to think were unlady-like to talk about. I find myself becoming a little more flexible about life and how things are changing. So, although the things that make my daughter and I laugh are not really very conservative or what you would expect a mother and daughter to talk about, we have a blast trying to out-shock one another. It is a unique and fun relationship and I really enjoy it.
Here is an interesting thing that I heard on the TODAY show this morning. Experts are now saying to eat fruit on an empty stomach, and only a minimal amount of water. Apparently this is because it causes a lot of stomach bloating when mixed with other foods and can make you look 7 to 10 pounds heavier. Their advice was to eat your fruit in the mornings and not with any other foods.
They also said it was not a good idea to drink a lot of water before any meal for the same reason. They are not saying not to eat fruit or drink water, just to change how you do it. It's funny how a few years ago all the experts were telling us just the opposite. They were advocating drinking lots of water before a meal. Well, I say why not try it and see how it works for us? If we don't like it, we can switch back to whatever we were doing before.
So, everybody, (or the one or two people who read this) that is all I have for today. Remember to take all your meds and supplements, get some exercise, cut back a little on the carbs and salt and have some fun. Don't forget to laugh. Would love to hear from some readers. I have had some friends leave comments, but they don't stay posted on this site. I have no idea why. If you leave a comment for me, don't forget to press the post button.
More later.........
I just saved $9.50 with coupons for things that I REALLY needed. It made me feel great! I have not done couponing since my children were little but with times as hard as they are now, if you can save a few cents on something why not? It is easy to do and doesn't take a long time. I have a wonderful son-in-law who loves to use coupons too. The way I look at it is this...If you found a quarter in the trash can, would you pick it up? What about seventy five cents, a dollar, or even five dollars? I know I would. (By the way, I color my hair and LoReal actually had a coupon for $5.00 off 2 boxes of their brand. Of course I used that.) I am by no means an extreme couponer; that requires hard work and dedication, but if I can save money on something I have to buy any way, why not? The trick to saving with coupons is NOT to buy things that you normally wouldn't purchase, just because you have a coupon. I find the coupons in the Sunday paper, and on the internet. I went to the local library to look for some but all of theirs were expired. I decided to put the money I save into a special envelope marked "Fun". I will figure out how to spend it later.
So that is one thing that makes me happy. Another thing that I really love is my somewhat unconventional relationship with my daughter in VA. We meet and chat on Facebook or text each other almost everyday and we have developed many inside jokes and crazy rituals that crack us both up. Some of our inside jokes are things that I would never have been able to express or discuss with anyone when I was younger. Getting older has somehow given me a less rigid view of things that I used to think were unlady-like to talk about. I find myself becoming a little more flexible about life and how things are changing. So, although the things that make my daughter and I laugh are not really very conservative or what you would expect a mother and daughter to talk about, we have a blast trying to out-shock one another. It is a unique and fun relationship and I really enjoy it.
Here is an interesting thing that I heard on the TODAY show this morning. Experts are now saying to eat fruit on an empty stomach, and only a minimal amount of water. Apparently this is because it causes a lot of stomach bloating when mixed with other foods and can make you look 7 to 10 pounds heavier. Their advice was to eat your fruit in the mornings and not with any other foods.
They also said it was not a good idea to drink a lot of water before any meal for the same reason. They are not saying not to eat fruit or drink water, just to change how you do it. It's funny how a few years ago all the experts were telling us just the opposite. They were advocating drinking lots of water before a meal. Well, I say why not try it and see how it works for us? If we don't like it, we can switch back to whatever we were doing before.
So, everybody, (or the one or two people who read this) that is all I have for today. Remember to take all your meds and supplements, get some exercise, cut back a little on the carbs and salt and have some fun. Don't forget to laugh. Would love to hear from some readers. I have had some friends leave comments, but they don't stay posted on this site. I have no idea why. If you leave a comment for me, don't forget to press the post button.
More later.........
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